I wish you were here my dearest darling girl. I miss you so much. We went to visit the wood today where we have paid for a tree to be planted in your memory, but the plaque is not there yet. The whole field is over grown with weeds and nettles so I hope when they do plant it they tidy it up a bit. It has rained off and on for most of the day as well so we couldn't really do that much. I can just imagine if you had been here we would have done something nice together, but you would prabably have complained about the weather. Still I would not care if it had snowed today if I could have spent it with you. My bickering family are no substitute. I suppose I have made some progress since you were taken away from me, but right now it does not feel like it. Right now I have never felt so low. I put piggy on the pillow next to me last night where you used to sleep. I hoped I might wake up and find you there instead. Sadly, of course, that could never be. But I will have you in my heart for ever. I love you so much. I will love you til I die.