It will be your birthday on Monday. I can't believe it. By now I would have bought your present, and planned a surprise for you. You would be trying to guess what it was. And I would be looking forward to seeing your face when I gave you your present or told you what the surprise was.But now there is nothing to do. I am glad Karen, Matthew and Victoria will be coming, but like me they will be very sad not to see you. We all miss you so very much my darling. I think about you every moment of every day, and even though I am getting on with things, as I know you would want me to, inside my heart it still broken, and I don't know if anything can ever mend it. I will love you forever.