Katie and Charlotte started to go through Judy's things yesterday. It can't have been easy for them, but at least they have made a start. I find it so hard to know what I think about the whole process. To be honest I still haven't fully accepted that she has gone. Having her family in the house without her being there just seems so strange and so wrong. I just miss her so much. It's like physical pain. Lily escaped last night when Richard arrived. I got quite upset, which shows how close to the surface my emotions are. And it was silly really because I was convinced I would never see her again (but of course she wandered back in of her own accord an hour later).