I've just read Richard's thought that he added to the websie last night. It made me feel so sad. everyone misses her so much. We all adored her and the pain is just so intense sometimes I just don't know how I can bear it. I should feel happier today because I know that Jude's family have come to stay for the week. At least I will have some company. But I can't feel happy, because they are here to go through her things. It is just one more stage in the process of letting go. Of accepting that she has gone. And I'm just not ready to accept it. I can't accept it. She was my life, and without her I just don't know what to do. I am lost. Totally lost.