I felt so bleak and despondent yesterday afternoon. But then I decided to do something I have not done in a very long time. I had a bath. Judy spent so much time in the bath (she loved it). I felt it was a way of feeling closer to her. And it worked. I then gained the strength and courage to go out to my departments Christmas meal down in Plymouth. The event was obviously tinged with great sadness for me personally, but just to be out and among a group of young, positive and happy people gave me great comfort.And it has made me feel much better about myself this morning. Tom is coming over a bit later and we are going out for Sunday lunch. The world seems slightly better today. I hope this feeling can last.