I was annoyed that my Mum did not get her present yesterday. I bought it on line and it should have arrived yesterday. Hopefully it will today. I have changed my mind dozens of times about what to do tonight. My department are having their christmas meal tonight, and since I am their manager I should be there. But am I up to it? Christmas this year no longer has any meaning for me and I'm not sure I want to sit in a restaurant full of people enjoying themselves. Will my presence actually put a dampner on things? My good friend Tom is also out tonight in Modbury and has asked me to go along. They are just having drinks in the pub which seems a little more bearable. I should probably do both but I will see how I feel later. I know I will go out though. I can't bear the idea of another night alone in front of the telly.