Thanks to BT I have lost my internet connection so I am using next door's computer. I went to see a spiritualist today and I was incredibly comforted by what she had to say. She was able to tell me so much about the circumstances of Judy's passing that really made me feel that Judy was there and was communicating things to me. She told me that she had died of heart failure, which is true and she described in some detail the intensive care ward where she was. She said things that only Judy could have told her. (like the fact that she had one kidney! I mean how could she have known that!. She also told me that this was not meant to happen. That she had tried to fight this and had ultimately lost that fight. And I felt that very strongly. She did fight as hard as she could. She lasted four days in hospital despite them telling me she would be lucky to survive the night. I feel so much better today as a result of this. I really feel more strongly than ever that she is around and she is supporting me.