Put some music up here yesterday. Couldn't think of a more appropriate song for my darling girl. I felt very down yesterday. It is the lonliness that is getting to me the most. Death and grieving is a lonely business. Even opening this website and seeing the words "Memorial To Judy Dawson" still doesn't seem real. But I want to try to remain positive which is why I shall be spending most of the day making investigations into setting up this charity for Judy. I know that if I don't do it no one else will. And I drew another goddess card last night to give me guidance today. The card was Freyja (who, interestingly is actually the goddess after whom the day Friday was named). It tells me to be bold and daring, and to not be afraid to have fun. Another message from Judy perhaps? I know despite all her problems she always wanted to have fun and to see the funny side of life. And I must try to do the same. She often criticised me for being too serious, so I guess I have to try to prove her wrong!!!!