This weeekend was one of the hardest of my life. I could so easily have killed myself I felt so low. But discovering Judy's book "The Tibetan Book Of Living And Dying" gave me strength. I don't know if Judy ever read it all but i do know that she had read at least half of it, and her interest in Buddhism is now living on through me. It is as though she wanted me to read this. i have sorted through alot of pictures for her memorial, and this was very hard on my own. I cried so much, but I am glad that I have done it. I have so many wonderful memoriaes of my life with Judy, and although it makes me very sad now to think that it is over, I know i will get comfort from it in time. And I know that her spirit will be with me always. She is watching me and I will not let her dowm!!!